Oh Lord, get me out of this slum. I need some serious picker-upper-ige.
I know, I'll watch Casino Royale.
*2 hours later*
Damn, I feel better!
Cheers!
15.3.07
13.3.07
11.3.07
The Day I Used To Be Happy
The day begins. I'm happy. I'm ready for the day.
The day ends. I'm miserable. I'm ready to kill someone.
What the hell happened in between?
The day ends. I'm miserable. I'm ready to kill someone.
What the hell happened in between?
10.3.07
4.3.07
Fate Kicking Sand in My Eyes
I cleaned house. I was at the point of complete disarray that I had to force myself to stop and look at the cluster I left in my path. My room was a mess: papers thrown across the floor, wrappers tossed somewhere in the vicinity of my full trash, clothes lay scattered to the point that I couldn't remember if they're dirty or not. So, I picked up the junk, emptied the trash, put the clothes and bed sheets in the wash, and vacuumed the floor. I'm so proud of myself.
I've been feeling this a lot lately, that I have to choose between two evils and pick the lesser one. There's no right answer, only a series of wrong ones. There is a serious lack of positive vibes in my life. Maybe that's why I love going home to the folks; they have plenty.
There's that certain aspect in my life where I just cannot win. I've tried various tactics to prevail and overcome it, but they end in disaster. You know how you see something go down in you r head, but becomes completely different when it actually happens? Well, that's reality for you, and I've been getting my fair share of it.
Stupid people and they're stupid limitless energy. Here they are bouncing off the walls while I'm struggling to open the door to get away. Am I cynical or experienced? It can be very frustrating not have any energy, and it is very angering when I see someone who has it in leaps and bounds. I have a theory that mine was stolen from me in second year, along with my CD jacket.
I wish there was a lighter note, but nothing exciting has happened lately. I've been bored-stricken for a week now, and it's difficult to fathom spending my whole life having days, weeks, months, or years living a dull, repetitive existence. I just will not stand for it. I want excitement. I want adventure. I want the satisfaction of living my life to the fullest, and when I'm done, I want to die satisfied and content.
Is that too much too ask?
Cheers!
I've been feeling this a lot lately, that I have to choose between two evils and pick the lesser one. There's no right answer, only a series of wrong ones. There is a serious lack of positive vibes in my life. Maybe that's why I love going home to the folks; they have plenty.
There's that certain aspect in my life where I just cannot win. I've tried various tactics to prevail and overcome it, but they end in disaster. You know how you see something go down in you r head, but becomes completely different when it actually happens? Well, that's reality for you, and I've been getting my fair share of it.
Stupid people and they're stupid limitless energy. Here they are bouncing off the walls while I'm struggling to open the door to get away. Am I cynical or experienced? It can be very frustrating not have any energy, and it is very angering when I see someone who has it in leaps and bounds. I have a theory that mine was stolen from me in second year, along with my CD jacket.
I wish there was a lighter note, but nothing exciting has happened lately. I've been bored-stricken for a week now, and it's difficult to fathom spending my whole life having days, weeks, months, or years living a dull, repetitive existence. I just will not stand for it. I want excitement. I want adventure. I want the satisfaction of living my life to the fullest, and when I'm done, I want to die satisfied and content.
Is that too much too ask?
Cheers!
3.3.07
2.3.07
That Ever Defining Moment
I am Jack's late night epiphany.
There are only so many days left until Graduation. Personally, I can't wait til it's over. But this is old news. What's semi-new news is that I'm planning a month-long Eurotrip in June. Exciting no? It's like getting on a rollercoaster, I'm both nervous and excited at the same time, which is typical since I can't decide on anything.
After this, teaching overseas is my next project. I'm just going to go away. Boy, won't that be nice. I think I'm at the point where I'm just exhausted to care about how much life sucks here. Sometimes it hard to grasp the whole idea of having a fulfilling life when all it's about is overcoming an endless supply of obstacles until you die. And don't say that that's fulfilling in itself. Sure, you feel the sense of accomplishment of success, but you just have to get ready for the next obstacle. Life becomes a conflict in itself as we are always fighting the elements in our daily lives. Kind of a rip-off, don't you think? All we get are those moments where we are at peace, and they never last very long. Hell, if I only had one wish, I'd wish to be content for the rest of my life, not rich or famous or having the ability to fly(although this would come close).
Maybe it's because I'm always lacking in energy that I have such a cynical outlook on life. Maybe I haven't been able to find that little bit of happiness everyone else seems to have already. Maybe I'm a closet EMO. Ok, maybe not that. Is everyone just ignorant, or am I the one ignoring.
...Or maybe I just need sleep...yeah...
Cheers
There are only so many days left until Graduation. Personally, I can't wait til it's over. But this is old news. What's semi-new news is that I'm planning a month-long Eurotrip in June. Exciting no? It's like getting on a rollercoaster, I'm both nervous and excited at the same time, which is typical since I can't decide on anything.
After this, teaching overseas is my next project. I'm just going to go away. Boy, won't that be nice. I think I'm at the point where I'm just exhausted to care about how much life sucks here. Sometimes it hard to grasp the whole idea of having a fulfilling life when all it's about is overcoming an endless supply of obstacles until you die. And don't say that that's fulfilling in itself. Sure, you feel the sense of accomplishment of success, but you just have to get ready for the next obstacle. Life becomes a conflict in itself as we are always fighting the elements in our daily lives. Kind of a rip-off, don't you think? All we get are those moments where we are at peace, and they never last very long. Hell, if I only had one wish, I'd wish to be content for the rest of my life, not rich or famous or having the ability to fly(although this would come close).
Maybe it's because I'm always lacking in energy that I have such a cynical outlook on life. Maybe I haven't been able to find that little bit of happiness everyone else seems to have already. Maybe I'm a closet EMO. Ok, maybe not that. Is everyone just ignorant, or am I the one ignoring.
...Or maybe I just need sleep...yeah...
Cheers
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